Today is the day that the Lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it

I am so in love with my Lord! He is amazing in every way. Last night I was at church with my boyfriend..who is not a Christian YET! He just sat there and I was worshipping God.. he seemed to be a bit discontent. I then realized wow! I am unequally yoked. I am with a man who I cannot pray with, worship God with, and be in unity with God with. So today I asked him if he is seeking God and wanting to get closer to him... he is a bit confused and ahhh if he is unwilling to accept Jesus then I will have to let him go..as much as I love him.. I will put God before all. I worship God not just because of what he's done but because of who he is. God is my everything and I commit my life to him and if William does not commit his life to God than how can I be in unity under God with this man? I am going to talk with him tonight and we are going to have bible study. I told william that God says the only way to heaven is through Jesus Christ and that is the only way.. and that if he was to die tonight he will go to hell. If william does not give his life to Christ we cannot continue because I follow God and God tells me not to be unequally yoked! I listen to God before all else. -- 

On another note... I visited Living Word Ministries Church last night and it was nice to see a few people who I haven't seen in a while. The worship was great and Gods presence was definitely there. =) 

 

Baby this and Baby that

I figured "pink" would be the best color candidate for this topic! I woke up bright and early to get my daughter dressed and on her way with her nana to the library this morning. I miss her already but it is time that I need apart from her. She is 4 months old and just as much as she needs me, I need her.. and I find myself consumed n her all day and everyday. It is important to have that time apart so I have time to do other things and no forget about my other responsibilities or interests. 

Her name is LaBelle- which I forgot to mention. We are going to an Easter egg hunt this Wed. @ 11:00 at my local library. Then I am off to her doctors apt. William is coming with me ! That should be much fun! 

On to the next.. I was curious to see what developmental stages my daughter is achieving so I went on babycenter.com to check it out and look at all the cool stuff I found out... 

4 months

Most babies should be able to . . .

• Hold up head at 90 degree angle while on stomach... CHECK
• Bear weight on both legs... I tend to hold her up and let her stand a bit while supported obviously but she is doing really well with that so yes CHECK
• Goo and coo when you talk... OH YES! LOTS!! CHECK
• Laugh and smile... CHECK

Some babies will probably be able to . . .

• Grasp a rattle or toy.. CHECK
• Pay attention to small object held in front of his or her face... CHECK
• Roll over.. UNCHECK.. I think :/ She hasnt rolled over by herself fully yet
• Reach out for objects.. CHECK
• Do small mini push ups...very unsure as to what this means lol but I am assuming that when she is on tummy time it is her raising her chest with her arms.. if I assume that then CHECK

Some babies could possibly be able to . . .

• Turn in direction of familiar voices... CHECK
• Hold head level with body when pulled to sit.. CHECK
• Sit without support.. only for a short amount of time.. she is getting there though. We will UNCHECK this for now.
• Make a razzing sound.. CHECK
• Get upset if you take a toy away... CHECK 
  
  
  Well okay then! She is doing well :) When she is 5 months I will do this again !!  
  *Tell me about your baby

I wrote this last night but didn't post until now...

I am laying here in bed about to call it a night. My daughter finally fell asleep and YES! I accomplished my goal for the day!!- that is right the goal of waking up and making sure my daughter runs out of energy through out the day by doing peek-a-boo, tummy time, babbling back and forth, listening to music, engaging in eye stimulation activities, and of course my favorite her gym activity mat that she just LOVES to move her arms and legs-boy that really tires her out - all for the sake of having a nice longgg sleep at the end of the day. Do you blame me? I was sleep deprived for so long that my body would take naps for seconds at a time. Basically meaning for a few seconds I would zone out. All part of motherhood; which I enjoy all aspects but some yeah not so much as the others like much rather wake up to my daughter smiling at me with a FULL nights rest than waking up to her screaming and crying with little to no sleep.. ahhh yup some joys just over ride the others =) 

M.A.R.R.I.A.G.E

The question fills my head everytime I look at my boyfriend. Will I marry him? 
Is he even thinking about marriage or possibly even thinking I am the one.. Oh gosh! I hate these what if's. I much rather be direct but its only been two months and that will so scare him away, don't you think? So I much rather play the little games and see how he responds. LOL. I throw out the term "our' kids and see how he responds. I told him I do not want to have sex until marriage and he is willing to wait with me I am guessing thinking one day we will have that chance because we will get married to one another. I have even tested him with the whole are you going to spend your holidays with me!! He passed every test and it looks good!!! Looks like we are heading in that direction... the question that awaits now is WHEN! I am pretty patience, but I know he is the one. I just know it! :) 


Not to mention we have taken pretty big steps in our relationship thus far. I used the bathroom with him in the same room.. well not bathroom but bedroom.. I have passed gas with him there!! :0 umm yeah pretty big. He has done the same with me. He leaves his stuff over my house... yup pretty big once again!! AND we are spending Easter together ... ahhh yes!! Big steps! :) I will def. keep posting the more milestones! --

Woken up at 4:04 A.M. by the sound of this quiet yet long and drawn out banging sound. I jumped up with my eyes barely open and my hair in my face. I looked over to my left just to make sure my daughter was still safe and sound. She then moved her arms because she was woken a bit by my sudden movement. I saw nothing but a quick thought ran through my mind- maybe it is not a good idea to watch exciting thriller movies right before I go to sleep. Night time is a time where mysterious, crazy things seem to happen and it all falls under the wonders of the night where things are hard to see. Something about the night- more sin occurs in the darkness- isn't that ironic? God says that he is the truth, the way and THE LIGHT... all things done in the darkness with come to light and be seen. So something about the dark and the night that can easily send shivers down a child's back. Back on topic.. I went back to sleep after that noise. I woke up with a sense of unknowing in my heart. I know there is a spiritual warfare going on at this very moment around me.. I can feel it as if it is seen with my naked eye. I have a huge urge to worship God and cry out to him- for something that is going on in the spiritual realm but has not yet manifested in the physical realm. Right now I know God is telling me to wait.. ( a season of waiting)- this is when my patience comes into play. God has told me to continue to obey him and that is what I am doing and now I am waiting for him to move!!! God is just so amazing and I am very very excited to see what he will continue to do in my life and my boyfriend- Williams life! Ahhh I cannot even begin to express my joy and excitement. I know God has so much in store and man oh man I am so happy. God has not yet failed me he is forever faithful to those who keep his commandments and obey is word. I look around me and see so many people try to fabricate Gods word and take bits and pieces from it- as to what they find suitable for their lives or what they think God finds suitable. Besides that aspect of my day..it has been pretty good. William got me subway today and a donut. =) Now I am about to get into worship with the Lord and possibly watch a movie later on. Here's a video of my daughter outside for a little while today :) enjoy!